over due

Wow i haven't blogged in quite some time. Well that is what happens when life happens. haha.
Lets see what is new?

3 weeks well plus 1 week for finals. so 4 weeks left of the semester.

I finally got a counselor position at buckskin so i am putting year 6 under my belt up there. I am sooooo excited!  Here is just a view of the lake front :-D

I absolutely love this place! 6 weeks and I will be back there.YAYAYAYAYAY 

hmm what else is new? 

Oh my mom is officially a little over 4 months cancer free. 

And all registered for fall. 

I am taking... 

Ethics

Bio of Women

Alg 2

Cultural Anthropology

Beginning Yoga

i am feeling pretty good about that schedule. oh yes. hmm anyways. Life has been pretty good. working on patience though. HA people i tell ya. 

Anyways this will be short cause i should go get ready to pump out some homework. at least i got the Atmosphere channel on Pandora and sunshine and coffee to come! Happy Saturday!!! 

homework interrupted

Wow it has been a while since i wrote last it seems like, sorry about that. Life has been a non stop train lately. I had my Montana trip, and back in school right away. Hardly any time to breathe i swear.

Anyways. I am in the middle of reading an article on Iran for my World Politics class and i just kept getting thoughts in my head, of things going on lately with people in my life, and this quote just stuck out to me...

If no one can read that small print it says:

"The people who want to stay in your life will always find a way"


Lately I have been finding this so true, I understand life gets busy and things can be forgotten, however i feel like if a friendship is going to last, it will, those people will find a way to make it work. It really can't be a 1 way street of friendship, i learned that the hard way in the past.

So i guess, i am just really trying to analyze some of those dwindling friendships at the moment. We shall see where it all ends up. I always say I am going to leave it up to God, who he puts in my life, but after something happens, it seems that he puts them in our life and gives us the tools to have the friendship, and encourages us to use them. I guess we have to figure out how to use them, and it only get's harder as we get older with friendships. hmph anyways.

Montana..... It was pure amazement, I still wish i was there. MSU- Bozeman is now in my top 2 schools i  want to get into. We shall see though, I still got a year at LSC to do. Everything about Montana, and well bozeman is just so me. haha. the shops, the people ( the ones i met at least), the nature of the whole place.

Here are just some pictures from the trip....

 

The canyon road to Big Sky ^^

my dad and i, downtown Bozeman ^^

and just an amazing view of mountains and some horses, at a local creek. 

I could post more pictures, but that would be sooooo much room haha. That place seriously hold's a place in my heart. If i do not go to school or work out there, I for sure want to move out there or visit there so much more often and it sure is helpful to have family who lives out there hehe. what a great reason :) 

Anyways, life is hectic, who's isn't? Lately I have been missing home so much, it seems like the last couple times i have been home, i actually didn't visit home, it was just a stop in my trip. 2 weeks and i am going home for Easter, I can't wait to just be at my house with my parents and just enjoy life in the cities again. I sure do miss that place. The only two things that could be better about that picture could be, instead of being at my house, being at my cabin and having my brother there :) 

However, hopefully i get a chance to go see him in May in Texas. Ahh that would be awesome. That reminds me i should call him back, he called on my birthday and i never got back to him...oops haha. 

On another note, 

I am so thankful for everyone who is in my life and i get to share all the awesome things happening with. It is a true blessing, all the laughs and friendships created.. and lately i have realized my New Year's resolution is actually being met :) which was... to not have any regrets of anything. So far so true. 

hm alright i should get back to my homework. 

Til next time. 

oh life

So since my last post i have realizations...


lets start with the biggest one.....

yes i have a "Mr. Big" in my life... and i have tried to talk to him. we have both established we both miss each other. However on Sunday the message at church just really got to me. the jist i got from the talk is that don't worry about money or materials, trust in the lord to provide for you and he shall.... so while hearing that i basically thought, i would rather love God and be single, than be with someone who doesn't believe in the same things in life that i really do fight with all the time. I guess it was just God's way of telling me that there is someone out there and it is not my time to with anyone, or maybe it is and he is in the process of getting to me hehe. who knows.

Also i am aware that tomorrow is Valentines Day. i know how cliche of me it is ...but it is very annoying  reading all the "woah is me, i am single posts" , its like come on it's like any other day of the year, get over it haha. well in my opinion.

ALSO my Goddaughter Amira was born today! WOOHOO! i have only seen pictures of her so far. But i can not wait until i go to the hospital and actually meet her and get to hold her!!! i am so excited for that moment. I will post a picture of her in my next post for sure!!!

hmm. so i should finish my tea and wait and see if my cousin shall skype me..... oh yeah....
My birthday is next week YAY!!!! also.....................................

MONTANA VACATION IN 2 WEEKS <3 so so so so so so so so excited :-D

Finally February

It is here, my birthday month! nothing special just turning 23. School has started. I am a month into it so far. And i have only missed one day of classes so far. being sick sucks. that is all i basically did yesterday and today was sleep.

Anyways...

I have borrowed the whole entire series of Sex and the City from my friend amy. I am currently on season 3. I am pretty sure i have my own Mr. Big..... last 3 years... when im ready he moves on... when he is ready i don't want anything...but i think i am finally ready to see if this takes us somewhere i am just hoping   that this could be something nice? i don't know what would happen with it when i go to a different university or something who knows. but honestly i think for how much he and i have been through i owe it to give us a chance? i don't know i contemplate this all the time.

anyways. I think i have my top picks of universities picked out University of Montana Missoula , Minnesota State University Moorhead, St. Cloud State and University of Wisconsin Superior.

We shall see where i end up.

Alright here are some pictures of my life lately....

i got this rug at menards!!! how adorable it was 2 bucks! one of the best buys ever! 

 

this map project took me 12 hours of my life and weekend. i better get a good grade on it. 

and finally... photo club got sweatshirts!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOO

okay i don't know what else to talk about ... unless you want me to go on and on about my mr big...which i know you don't so i will end on this note.... 

have a good weekend.... i finally get to be upstairs for a full service :)

Nature VS Nurture

So i have been meaning to watch juno since last night which tonight i am PLANNING ON IT! it is one of my most favorite films... at the moment i am at the near end of my art appreciation homework. and i got this very random thought in my head about juno and how i feel it relates to me..

being adopted i feel like this is a story my birth parents somewhat went through, but in different ways. So when i watch it i guess i feel connected to them... is that weird? who knows. people find some pretty weird things to relate to other people with. Maybe it is just my mind wishing i knew how my birth parents were like who knows.

Don't get me wrong i love love love my parents and brother i have. But i guess being adopted you are always going to have a different feeling than what someone else would feel. ( my opinion)

I was hanging out with my best friend and another friend earlier today, and we were talking... i think i am ready to fill out paperwork to figure out where i come from. honestly just even thinking about it scares the crap out of me. However  i truly think i am ready to know them or know of them.

i would say this quote is really how i feel, i had family member once tell me that i shouldn't even think of my birth family that i should only care about the family i have now. don't get me wrong i love my family with all my heart.. but being adopted is different... i guess it can be a hard thing to verbalize.
I just want to call that someone up and give them a piece of my mind everyday. I just can't i guess all i can do is prove them wrong. I can have both worlds. But knowingly my family that has been present for the last 23 years and 9 months are the most important people to me ever in my lifetime. I just have questions i want closure to.

This is cliche to say but i truly believe that 2012 should be the year i find myself. Discover where i really come from.

Enough of my thoughts for tonight ha. Hope everyone is having a good weekend. time to finish homework.

Marchin On...

it is now 2012....that is a little nuts but it is another year to look forward to. my resolution is to not regret anything. So far i have no regrets :)

Classes started monday, 16 credits phew. The classes i have i am so excited about though...

Intro to Philosophy
Art Appreciation
Intro to Astronomy
World Politics
and well just Alg 1 ( boooo) haha.

So far these classes seem pretty awesome i am excited to get started. Trust me i am so sad not to be in the ceramic studio or photography class anymore but Montana is calling my name so that means no more fun classes ( well in moderation).

Since the new year has started i have made a huge realization about myself and just people and relationships... it is hard for me to open up to certain people.... i guess besides my family and my best friend i don't trust people knowing about me. Not sure why. probably judgement? which i know i shouldn't care if people judge me but sometimes that fear gets the best of me. hmph.

Well like i said this is a new year time to make new changes ( for the better!)... hmm time to go read some philosophy and figure out games to play for small group starting in a few weeks! yup that's right i am fun coordinator! woot woot! hehe.

wow i thought this blog would be longer...sorry guys... i just i got writers block as i started. lame sauce. i should just start doing small blogs even if that means 5 updates a week maybe? haha. who knows we shall see.

Closer and closer!

I am officially one semester closer to moving to montana. i honestly think there is only one other person in the world that understands this itch i have, and i get to see her in march out in montana. my cousin Rachel.

Well i am home for about 2 weeks.

This first week is filled with seeing my camp family. Some people wouldn't grasp the concept of me saying camp family. However they really are, i am pretty much closer to them than i am to my own family, i guess that is what i get for working at buckskin for 4 1/2 years haha. So i am waiting in anticipation for the days filled with them this week <3

Also my brother is flying in from Dallas wednesday morning YAY! so i am hopefully going to get some good quality brother time in.

*side note i have a mint chocolate candle from Bath and Body Works... and usually i hate all things chocolate but this smell just rocks!**

Anyways..

Sometimes i forget how much i miss the cities until i am back here, getting to do all the things i love and get to see all the awesome things around. But i am super thankful to have my friends up north that distract me from having bad homesickness.

So far i have just one of my grades back from this semester but i am proud to say it is an "A" in my Sociology class...  :-D
 I am still trying to patiently wait for my other grades to come in. haha.

My best friend's baby will be here in only 2 months... I am sooooo excited to meet my God daughter!!!!
Little miss Amira :) hurry on up the world wants to meet you!!!

I seriously need to start photographing my ceramics so i can put it up on my facebook page and start my website. man oh man hello starving artist and college student... great combo ehh? haha

Well anyways this last semester was a great one...making new great friendships and learning which friends are great ( if that makes sense?). Next semester is overload for me i am used to going part time but hello full time 16 credits. Although it help me achieve my dream of Montana. I love where i am in life though with school, friends and, family.

Alrighty can't think of anything to write right now. I shall be updating more since i have more time over break. woohooo!