being adopted i feel like this is a story my birth parents somewhat went through, but in different ways. So when i watch it i guess i feel connected to them... is that weird? who knows. people find some pretty weird things to relate to other people with. Maybe it is just my mind wishing i knew how my birth parents were like who knows.
Don't get me wrong i love love love my parents and brother i have. But i guess being adopted you are always going to have a different feeling than what someone else would feel. ( my opinion)
I was hanging out with my best friend and another friend earlier today, and we were talking... i think i am ready to fill out paperwork to figure out where i come from. honestly just even thinking about it scares the crap out of me. However i truly think i am ready to know them or know of them.
i would say this quote is really how i feel, i had family member once tell me that i shouldn't even think of my birth family that i should only care about the family i have now. don't get me wrong i love my family with all my heart.. but being adopted is different... i guess it can be a hard thing to verbalize.
I just want to call that someone up and give them a piece of my mind everyday. I just can't i guess all i can do is prove them wrong. I can have both worlds. But knowingly my family that has been present for the last 23 years and 9 months are the most important people to me ever in my lifetime. I just have questions i want closure to.
This is cliche to say but i truly believe that 2012 should be the year i find myself. Discover where i really come from.
Enough of my thoughts for tonight ha. Hope everyone is having a good weekend. time to finish homework.
